New Month Reflections

1. It takes God, a parent and a teacher to effectively contribute in a child's life and all parties must be involved.

 Teaching is beautiful and heart-wrenching. Heart-wrenching because parents can do so less and not even come up with ways to help their children. It comes across as "none of my business". My colleague and I  often laugh and say, if some parents could, we'd also be assisting their children with homework. There's more to it. 

Sometimes it's seeing how difficult certain kids find to grasp things which you go over and over again and things they'd get if parents were consistently involved. Sometimes I think learning difficulties are not acknowledged by parents. 

As a teacher you get appreciated and blamed. I was told if a child fails, it reflects on you. And at first, I believed this. But what about when you go all out and definitely see the results except for those two students? What about the meetings you've called and parents not applying the advice? It's not fair, especially when you faithfully do your part.

As a teacher you must pray for wisdom to find ways to cater for each child's needs and it's not always easy but you must.

I don't know if it's only me, but the desire for intimacy grows in your late 20s. Look man, I envy couples who are in the same place ( I personally don't recommend long-distance courtship 😭). I long for a husband to share my life with, care for each other and to be intimate with. I'll be at malls, watching couples interact, shop together etc. I long for that. I used to think being close with my mom will help, but the desire is there. 

I also need friends but I don't have the energy to initiate stuff. I hope that's not pride talking.

Saying no is vital.

People do not like paying for services and often they want to benefit, without playing their part.

2. Learning to say no is bringing me peace. I used to believe I need to say yes every time I'm asked to preach, but I'm in a place where I want to hear others. I really see so much potential that I think I personally want to invest more time on door-to-door and visiting church members. 

I've also realized being silent at times helps. People often want  to dictate  how you should do things or often want to make you carry a load that's not yours, not responding often helps.

3. I'm grateful to be in a better place emotionally. I'm hopeful.

I'm grateful to have job so I can help at home. It's heartbreaking to read about the job losses during this Covid saga. The pay cuts too. It's only through God's grace. What if some deaths involved people getting overwhelmed around job losses? Ever thought of that?

I'm grateful for a job that challenges me to grow and keep pushing myself, and even amidst the discouragements, God comes through. 

4. God is my go-to person. There was something that happened and it really discouraged me. Ever put your all (or thought you did), only to receive negative results and feedback. That really hurt. It took me a while, but God has been giving me strength and motivating me.

5. I want to help more. I'll share more on this on the next blog.