Reflections of A Black Christian Woman

 If there's one thing about God that continues to amaze me, is how invested He is in molding our characters in His likeness. He will stop at nothing to consistently provide us with opportunities to overcome sin and character flaws, while granting us with all the strength and knowledge we need. The work I do in the Christian school I'm part of is challenging to the utmost. And what makes it more challenging is that I'm a sinner dealing with other sinners. So, I'm in constant need of God's grace and guidance (like we all are). In my case, I'm dealing with young minds and so they are impressionable. And that means I can do the greatest good or the greatest harm. It also means I'm tested severely, patient-wise (a glimpse of how I also test God's long-suffering). And at times, I might react unwise (and these are sins I have to confess and ask forgiveness to God and the children). Working with children exposes you to your evil heart more than anything and issu...

 If there's one thing I've learnt over the past year, it's the importance of healing - not just physically but holistically. I think we often dwell so much on the outside that we forget the inward - which is so crucial because it impacts habits, thought process and overall behavior. I've realized trauma harms us and is more deadly when not dealt with. Specifically, childhood trauma . Often than not, we don't even know we might be reacting in a certain way or even behaving in a particular way because of something as far back as our childhood. I had a fairly, wonderful childhood with the ebbs and flows of life. But as I grew older I dealt with quite a bit, even though it wasn't overwhelming. I was so fearful of making mistakes and I was so insecure, but as I reflect, I now know the insecurity came from being told I was ugly at the tender age by a stranger. Strangely, that scarred me and made me look for worth in so much - particularly my academics. When that was ...

Diary entry: 6 June 2021 I'm filled with gratitude as I think of how much God has done for my partner and I. Every experience we've had is a testament of God providing for us. Our relationship is a testament of prayer and a Father who cares about our happiness. My partner and I are in a long distance courtship and we had been praying for provision and for God to open up a way for us to meet. And when Babalo told me he'd be coming this week, I didn't know how everything was going to play out, but I've seen God answering every prayer - from travelling mercies, quiet moments, good weather and so much more. And as I reflect, on this fourth day, I'm filled with gratitude. I know we've both needed time to reflect on our journey, recommit, reaffirm and I'm so grateful. Yesterday, we had a picnic and it was such a calm, beautiful experience which made me realize that, even those very seemingly "crazy" requests are God's pleasure. I honestly pray fo...